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What We Played for Week Ending April 29

by Jennifer KibbleApril 30, 2012

This is a weekly segment where we share what games we are currently playing for our readers to get to know us a bit better. Said games can range from retro to current and from casual to FPS games. If we’re playing it, we’ll share it. Please feel free to comment with what you’re playing or your opinions on the games that we’re involved with.

Chris: My gaming has been very much all over the place.

Started a Crash Bandicoot game, the graphics haven’t aged well, but man, the platforming is still on point.

Tried tackling Skullgirls. This game is no joke. Very impressive fighter despite the silly characters and animations. Almost a Dark Stalkers meets Blazblue but only has sexy chicks kind of hybrid. Combofest of a game, also falls into the realm of “easy to play, super difficult to master”.

Also since the NFL draft was happening this weekend and the recent announcement of Megatron gracing Madden 13‘s cover, figured that was enough to mess with Madden 12 for a couple games.

Rose kicks ass

William: Been playing the SHIT out of Legend of Dragoon. This game is awesome. Why don’t more RPGs have characters like Rose, that aren’t emo, and literally give zero fucks about character relationships? She just understands that to save the world, some ass kickery must be had, and she’s there to dole it out.

Still running through Gold Challenges in ME3. They FINALLY ALLOWED EVENTS ON THE PS3. The gameplay doesn’t actually change, but it feels cooler knowing that we’re contributing to killing a million phantoms.

Also popped in some League of Legends for a few matches. Katarina is too good man. Too good. Also on the PC I’m trying Tribes: Ascend out today. So… lets see how that goes.

Greg: I have been playing around with Fallout New Vegas on PC again. Messing around with mods, seeing what else I can put in there. Stuff like actual weather, dapper gecko’s, and deranged gnomes. Fun times. I have been enjoying exploring the wasteland, venturing off the beaten path.

Jeff: This week has been relatively light as far as games went. I played a few rounds of Marvel vs. Capcom 3, then finished off all 240 Riddles in my latest playthrough of Batman: Arkham Asylum, followed by marginal progress in Batman: Arkham City. Usually, I can sit and play those games for hours, but I’ve been more interested in Metroid Prime 2: Echoes and Halo 3. Sometimes I just have to trade the batarangs and smoke bombs for something a little more laser-y.

Ryan: Been finishing up Mortal Kombat mostly, just getting the last few achievements. Some of them are a bit ridiculous, but I love it. Working on getting ribbons and medals in Gears of War 3 as well. I have a feeling it’ll take me til the end of 2013 to be anywhere close to finished with Gears 3. All in all, a very productive gaming week.

Ben: I played through Shank 2 only because I forgot to cancel my free trial of PS+ and it was free on the service. Might as well take advantage of PS+ if I’m now paying for it, right? Anyway Shank 2 was just ok. If you like side scrolling beat ‘em ups you’ll like it much more than I did. Viewtiful Joe remains the only game in that genre for me to really enjoy.

Other than that I’ve been continuing through Mana Khemia and The Witcher.

Jen: Played a little bit of Rock Band 3 and Lips. I wanted to get a few achievements in Lips, but discovered that I need the main disc to do so. I gave up on that and the lag for that game is a tad annoying to endure, which is why I rather just play Rock Band. Got to level 47 in SWTOR, however my main toon is starting to become broke while crafting items to give to her companions to like her for the Legacy bonus.

Jake: Lots and lots of TERA online. With a bit of Diablo 3 and Mists of Pandaria.

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  • James.Lu

    Thanks for the post.

  • Deborah Holliday

    I need to have advise please. Right Here is my situation. My organization closed its divisional business office in MN. Decreased its power by 1/3, has its other office in TX and LA. Myself along with 80 other colleges misplaced there task on March 20. All of us received severance packages. I acquired 12 weeks. On the 20th of march we received our last shell out with all un utilised PTO. I had 450 hours paid out. The organization also advised us you can get unemployment once your severance has expired. First week in april I acquired my 3/4 quarter 2008 reward it is about 1 month of salary pay, what i us ally get. Stop of April I received another pro-rated bonus for operate in Jan-march about 2 weeks of salary. Very Last week I used for unemployment benefits, they advised me my weekly benefit would be 520 bucks each and every week. Yesterday I obtained a letter in the Mail stating I will be eligiable to accumulate my first payment on October 4 2009! I known as them proper away. The Man at the UI workplace instructed me the firm showed I got 29 weeks in seperation pay. I informed him my severance was for 12 weeks, I told him I did get bonus labored and PTO. He mentioned you can’t get this on top rated of unemployement. I known as some previous collegues they are obtaining UI just good all received severances, PTO and Bonues payed out. All obtained it proper soon after there severance expired. So I referred to as back and spoke with another person, they instructed me I need to charm the findings. They advised me it will take 8-12 weeks to process. I was going to use the added cash to supplement my unemployement. I have never been on unemployement, i am paying each hour of the day searching for a job. I dont realize I worked tough all of my daily life never ever stuffed for help this sort of as this and I get greif. A nieghbor of mine enjoys when we gets laid off and get unemployement. He sits all around and performs playstation and drinks beer for 3 months out of the 12 months amassing unemployement. He by no means has boueux with them.
    Sorry to vent just asking yourself how this works

  • Saundra Jarvie

    I’ve been through a whole lot with this a single guy, Hector…I met him on my birthday in October 24th (I turned 16 and he is 15) We held conversing non stop, and he had a girlfriend. He kept telling me he’d break up with his girlfriend for me. He broke up with her on and asked me if i nonetheless liked him, and i mentioned i did. He said “well, we’ll see what happens in a couple days..:)” . Then on November 3rd he asked me out. He was my first kiss, and i missing my virginity to him. We had intercourse two times when we have been going out. He would constantly say he loved me just when he saw me, and broke up with a lady that he had been dating for 2 months for me…Then like soon after a month &a week, he texted me saying “hey… i come to feel like our partnership isn’t working for me, i am going to just have to think.” on december 5th
    I took that as a break up, y’know. So I changed my relationship standing on fb and shit. The subsequent day after school i texted him saying “why did you break up with me? i just genuinely wanna know why.” and he’s like “I didn’t break up with you I told you I necessary to assume I by no means explained it is more than but you transformed your connection status on FB and nowadays i noticed you keeping palms with a guy…it’s awesome however whatever, it’s done.” And i was keeping fingers with my brothers ideal friend, who is like a brother to me. IDK it was stupid, i did it to make him jealous though. Then like the subsequent day at school i attempted speaking to him again…&he explained “I will not really want a connection correct now”
    2 weeks from then, he received his very best friend to start off talking to me. So i ended up hanging out with hector & his ideal pal soon after school and ended up cigarette smoking weed with them both, and getting sex with his ideal friend. While hector mentioned he was getting head. It was stupid but whichever it happened. Then hector’s ideal pal ended up asking me out, and we went out for 2 weeks.. Like on Jan third he broke up with me declaring “we do not genuinely talk much” when i talked to him much more than he ever talked to me. that’s when i discovered out that hector had advised his best buddy to go out with me. Also hector ended up heading back to his ex, for like only a month though.
    Then he would constantly see if i was there at college some days, and random shit. Hector would search at me from throughout the courtyard where we stood at lunch. His friends would always says “Hectors still in enjoy with you.”except Hector was not truly talking to me a lot then.
    then like feb 24th hector texted me stating “hey.” I was like “hi? why are you texting me, haha?” and he was like “cuz i wanted too, but i gotta go to sleep now bye.” i was like “okay.”
    then we texted non end for a week, and he asked me to hang out on feb 29th, and we ended up acquiring sex, not the whole time but for a while. And we would also talk about stupid shit, and he would appear into my eyes and notify me anything… then he stopped conversing to me 3 days after that… &then i located out his phone had broke.
    His sister would inform me he just desired intercourse but he would still seem at me at lunch &say hi in the hallway…
    then he texted me march 26th, saying “hey,” and he we talked non cease the moment again…&when i was combating with my best good friend he would make me happy. He kept making an attempt to get me to hang out with him &have a sleep in excess of but i couldn’t these days, aahah.
    Then like on april 1st we hung out again, had sex, but almost everything felt perfect once again…&he would appear in my eyes when i was talking, and just maintain me anytime he could, and kiss my forehead, and just randomly kiss me while keeping my face. he would smile into the kiss, and he picked me up hahha. we talked about silly shit like always, and played with my hair. he even told me he failed to have a very best friend…that he only had a ‘best pot buddy’. i suggest that is like trusting me sooo significantly there.
    then on the following day, he mentioned that we essential to talk. he texted me stating “haha cool and um effectively you happen to be truly wonderful and neat but i will not actually like want a romantic relationship uk?” then i failed to react for a whilst so he stored texting “?” and “Ashleyyy!” then i mentioned “idk what to say to be honest.”
    he asked me “are you mad or what?” im like “a tiny but im largely hurt&confused”
    then he explained “sorry i really care about you and i assume we can be great pals its just up to you.” and isaid “sorry for?& i genuinely treatment about you too, but just why?” and he’s like “why what? and for becoming a douche i guess.” then like i also asked him “like is it trigger you genuinely don’t wanna connection proper now? or is it trigger you like an individual else? :” and he is like “idk.”
    then 2 days later on he needed to know if we have been friends. i informed him im confused. then he explained “i never ever meant we ended up gonna date i jus
    t assumed we ended up being friends.” &then he talks to me just like usual. &says he wishes to discuss deal with to face, i questioned why. he stated “cos idk :p i just wanna talk about items :p”

    also he talks to this other woman Jessie at school. like they could just be pals from what i tell. but it bothers me so much, particularly when he hugs her appropriate in front of me whilst he appears at me. it hurts so fucking much. so i just do not fucking know anymore…

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  • Melisa Klenke

    I want advise please. Right Here is my situation. My organization closed its divisional workplace in MN. Decreased its force by 1/3, has its other business office in TX and LA. Myself alongside with 80 other schools lost there work on March 20. All of us got severance packages. I obtained 12 weeks. On the 20th of march we got our last shell out with all un used PTO. I had 450 hrs compensated out. The company also advised us you can get unemployment when your severance has expired. 1st week in april I acquired my 3/4 quarter 2008 reward it is about 1 month of income pay, what i us ally get. Conclude of April I obtained one more pro-rated reward for function in Jan-march about 2 weeks of salary. Final week I applied for unemployment benefits, they instructed me my weekly benefit would be 520 bucks each and every week. Yesterday I got a letter in the Mail stating I will be eligiable to acquire my very first payment on Oct 4 2009! I referred to as them appropriate away. The Man at the UI office environment advised me the firm showed I got 29 weeks in seperation pay. I told him my severance was for 12 weeks, I told him I did get bonus labored and PTO. He said you can’t get this on top rated of unemployement. I known as some previous collegues they are obtaining UI just great all received severances, PTO and Bonues payed out. All obtained it proper after there severance expired. So I referred to as again and spoke with another person, they informed me I want to appeal the findings. They advised me it will get 8-12 weeks to process. I was going to use the additional cash to dietary supplement my unemployement. I have never been on unemployement, i am paying every hour of the day looking for a job. I dont recognize I labored challenging all of my existence never ever stuffed for guidance this kind of as this and I get greif. A nieghbor of mine loves when we gets affreux off and get unemployement. He sits around and plays playstation and drinks beer for 3 months out of the year amassing unemployement. He never ever has trouble with them.
    Sorry to vent just asking yourself how this works

  • Lizzie Galatioto

    I need advise please. Here is my situation. My firm closed its divisional workplace in MN. Decreased its force by 1/3, has its other business office in TX and LA. Myself along with 80 other schools missing there work on March 20. All of us got severance packages. I got 12 weeks. On the twentieth of march we acquired our closing spend with all un used PTO. I had 450 hrs paid out. The company also advised us you can get unemployment once your severance has expired. Initial week in april I acquired my 3/4 quarter 2008 bonus it is about 1 month of wage pay, what i us ally get. Conclude of April I received one more pro-rated bonus for function in Jan-march about 2 weeks of salary. Previous week I applied for unemployment benefits, they informed me my weekly reward would be 520 bucks each week. Yesterday I acquired a letter in the Mail stating I will be eligiable to collect my first payment on Oct 4 2009! I known as them correct away. The Man at the UI workplace advised me the organization showed I got 29 weeks in seperation pay. I told him my severance was for 12 weeks, I told him I did get reward labored and PTO. He stated you are not able to get this on best of unemployement. I known as some former collegues they are obtaining UI just good all obtained severances, PTO and Bonues payed out. All obtained it appropriate right after there severance expired. So I referred to as again and spoke with another person, they informed me I want to appeal the findings. They advised me it will consider 8-12 weeks to process. I was going to use the extra dollars to health supplement my unemployement. I have by no means been on unemployement, i am paying every single hour of the day searching for a job. I dont recognize I labored tough all of my existence by no means filled for guidance this kind of as this and I get greif. A nieghbor of mine enjoys when we will get laid off and get unemployement. He sits close to and plays playstation and drinks beer for 3 months out of the year amassing unemployement. He in no way has problems with them.
    Sorry to vent just asking yourself how this works

  • Cliffy N

    Alright, I’m desperate…

    I feel completely hopeless. A little info about me; I’m a 31 y/o guy of mixed ethnicities, and I’ve never (yes, I’m being serious) had a serious girlfriend. I’m also a “healer” by nature. Meaning, I tend to nurse my friends out of bad relationships or stressful life situations. However, I tend to have no one to turn to when I have problems. Which has been hard at times.
    I’m pretty good looking, a little on the chubby side. But I have been told I have nice eyes and smile (thanks, orthodontics). I haven’t been stuck under a rock (okay, maybe a little), though it might seem that way from the surface. I grew up in a VERY conservative home, and those values have been “haunting” me everytime I mention the word dating. I was quite committed to education in HS and college, so it left no time to be with a girlfriend. That doesn’t mean the desire to date wasn’t there. I just let my craft become my primary focus. I did attempt to date after college, and most of the dates went quite well! However, each and everytime I was left empty-handed. Most telling me they thought I was a “great friend” or a “sweetheart.” It’s like they all knew each other and I was experiencing some bad groundhog day.

    By around 26, I decided to just pack it in and focus on my career. All my friends were saying, “Don’t worry, love will hit you when you least expect it. Be patient….you’re a terrific guy!……a woman would be SO lucky to have you, blah, blah, blah.” I took their advice and in the process, I began to enjoy being single! Well this lasted for a few years, and in the meantime my career took off. But it seems like when I began looking around again, I noticed something peculiar. Nearly all my peers were getting married and having families. So, I decided to try once again at 29 and “keep an eye out.” Just putting myself out there.

    I’ve been to museums, done plays, gone to Art Gallery openings, mountain bike outings, Online, etc. So I have come out of my shell a bit in attempts to get myself out there.

    I went on a series of dates that mimicked my dates in my early 20’s: “Wow, you’re such a nice guy! But……” I don’t need to hear the ending, I know the “but” means they aren’t interested.

    Well, I met a terrific woman in January! I wasn’t even looking, and she contacted me (through an acquaintance) and asked if I was available. Come to find out we had a lot of things in common, and quickly hit it off! There was only one problem. She lived a few states over. Though I swore I’d never become interested in anyone long distance, we talked about it and decided to take a leap of faith. And I had every intention IF things worked out, of relocating later this year. Well, after a few months of talking nearly every night (I had to bump up my cell phone plan!), there was the big date/meeting in early April. Everything went incredibly well, as I even got to meet her brother and some of her close friends. We were both sad the extended weekend ended so fast. I sent her flowers upon my return home, and she sent me a message thanking me and saying I was “so sweet” for sending them.

    That was the last I heard from her.

    It’s been a month. Nothing. No “I don’t think it will work” voicemail, call or text. I’ve been trying to reach her, but to no avail.

    My world has been completely shattered. I honestly thought I met someone who FINALLY understood me. And I didn’t rush things, in effort to make love happen. Rather, I FINALLY let nature take its course. But nonetheless, it failed.

    It seems that after every failed date, I hear “wow, you’re such a sweet or nice guy. But……” My depression hit an all-time low while biking last week, and seeing what appeared to be tons of young couples holding hands and enjoying each others company. I couldn’t help thinking of my failed relationship, I had to pull over and duck behind a tree to unleash a torrent of tears. The depression the last month has been so bad, I’ve contemplated drastic measures.

    I don’t know what I’m missing. I know I’m not the most seasoned with regard to dating. But I don’t think I need to have 50 dates under my belt to find true love, either. I seem to be one of the last guys on earth that believes in chivalry. Treating a woman as an equal partner, not as my subordinate. I believe in coming home from work, and if she’s had a long day help her our with meal prep & cleaning. I’ve tried “making myself available” in all sorts of places over the last few years. All with the same results. Then I see beautiful woman with these total geeks, Frat-boys, or thug-wannabe. And I wonder, “How the heck did that happen?!”

    I’m thinking I need to just forget it all. Realize I’m not relationship-material, for some reason or another. I guess there is no place for an old-fashioned gentleman anymore, besides with the 40+ crowd (Oh god, I do get looks from the cougars…but not for me, no offense.)

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  • Denali

    I’ve been through a lot with this one guy, Hector…I met him on my birthday in October 24th (I turned 16 and he’s 15) We kept talking non stop, and he had a girlfriend. He kept telling me he’d break up with his girlfriend for me. He broke up with her on and asked me if i still liked him, and i said i did. He said “well, we’ll see what happens in a couple days..:)” . Then on November 3rd he asked me out. He was my first kiss, and i lost my virginity to him. We had sex twice when we were going out. He would always say he loved me just when he saw me, and broke up with a girl that he had been dating for 2 months for me…Then like after a month &a week, he texted me saying “hey… i feel like our relationship isn’t working for me, i’ll just have to think.” on december 5th
    I took that as a break up, y’know. So I changed my relationship status on fb and shit. The next day after school i texted him saying “why did you break up with me? i just really wanna know why.” and he’s like “I didn’t break up with you I told you I needed to think I never said it’s over but you changed your relationship status on FB and today i saw you holding hands with a guy…it’s cool though whatever, it’s done.” And i was holding hands with my brothers best friend, who is like a brother to me. IDK it was stupid, i did it to make him jealous though. Then like the next day at school i tried talking to him again…&he said “I don’t really want a relationship right now”
    2 weeks from then, he got his best friend to start talking to me. So i ended up hanging out with hector & his best friend after school and ended up smoking weed with them both, and having sex with his best friend. While hector said he was getting head. It was stupid but whatever it happened. Then hector’s best friend ended up asking me out, and we went out for 2 weeks.. Like on Jan 3rd he broke up with me saying “we don’t really talk much” when i talked to him more than he ever talked to me. that’s when i found out that hector had told his best friend to go out with me. Also hector ended up going back to his ex, for like only a month though.
    Then he would always see if i was there at school some days, and random shit. Hector would look at me from across the courtyard where we stood at lunch. His friends would always says “Hectors still in love with you.”except Hector wasn’t really talking to me much then.
    then like feb 24th hector texted me saying “hey.” I was like “hi? why are you texting me, haha?” and he was like “cuz i wanted too, but i gotta go to sleep now bye.” i was like “okay.”
    then we texted non stop for a week, and he asked me to hang out on feb 29th, and we ended up having sex, not the whole time but for a while. And we would also talk about stupid shit, and he would look into my eyes and tell me anything… then he stopped talking to me 3 days after that… &then i found out his phone had broke.
    His sister would tell me he just wanted sex but he would still look at me at lunch &say hi in the hallway…
    then he texted me march 26th, saying “hey,” and he we talked non stop once again…&when i was fighting with my best friend he would make me happy. He kept trying to get me to hang out with him &have a sleep over but i couldn’t those days, aahah.
    Then like on april 1st we hung out again, had sex, but everything felt perfect once again…&he would look in my eyes when i was talking, and just hold me whenever he could, and kiss my forehead, and just randomly kiss me while holding my face. he would smile into the kiss, and he picked me up hahha. we talked about stupid shit like always, and played with my hair. he even told me he didn’t have a best friend…that he only had a ‘best pot buddy’. i mean that’s like trusting me sooo much there.
    then on the next day, he said that we needed to talk. he texted me saying “haha cool and um well you’re really nice and cool but i don’t really like want a relationship uk?” then i didn’t respond for a while so he kept texting “?” and “Ashleyyy!” then i said “idk what to say to be honest.”
    he asked me “are you mad or what?” im like “a little but im mostly hurt&confused”
    then he said “sorry i really care about you and i think we can be good friends its just up to you.” and isaid “sorry for?& i really care about you too, but just why?” and he’s like “why what? and for being a douche i guess.” then like i also asked him “like is it cause you really don’t wanna relationship right now? or is it cause you like someone else? :” and he’s like “idk.”
    then 2 days later he wanted to know if we were friends. i told him im confused. then he said “i never meant we were gonna date i jus
    t thought we were being friends.” &then he talks to me just like usual. &says he wants to talk face to face, i asked why. he said “cos idk :p i just wanna talk about things :p”

    also he talks to this other girl Jessie at school. like they could just be friends from what i tell. but it bothers me so much, especially when he hugs her right in front of me while he looks at me. it hurts so fucking much. so i just don’t fucking know anymore…

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  • Orbit

    Hi,
    Thanks in advance it means alot. Basically my ex is sending me huge mixed messages. He ended it on April 29th 2012 out of the blue. We was together for 14 months without any flaws or arguments and had a very active sex life (sex nearly every day of the week). . Due to it being a shock I went psycho outside his.. but lets not go into detail. But he blocked me out on everything.. facebook, phone everything you name it hes blocked it. After the breakup I found out I was pregnant with his baby and had no way to tell him, he wasn’t even at his house he was on Holiday in scotland for 3 weeks. While I was stressing about the baby, I miscarried in early June. Anyways..

    From april I’ve been finding it hard to get over him and grieve from the miscarried. But on the 3th of July he decided to contact me via my blackberry and we decided to meet up so we can talk. We talked about everything and he said he regretted ending it, we ending up kissing and I felt fireworks and then he held me close and said he loves me. The came out with, we cant get back together until we build bridges what was painful to here but I agreed to it. I told him about the miscarriage and we cried about it together and that was some comfort and to be honest I was so happy we was talking. Then on the 6th he blocked me out Again and I asked why. He said he cant forgive me when I went psycho outside his and hes doing it because he loves me?

    Then on the Friday the 27th July he’s got back in contact again sending mixed messages and I’ve told him how I still feel about him and left it there. I wasn’t going to beg anymore.

    We’ve been messaging for a few days now but Today I went on a date and he asked me what I was up too so I told him and his whole attitude in typing changed. Then he sent me a message that made me cry. I’ll show you what I sent him and what he replayed it broke my heart.

    What I sent him:

    Yeah your right it does help, you forgot about me easily enough.

    Yeah, same. I had a great date and it was a laugh. Plus an awesome time out with dad. Got two mates back together. Today’s been bliss.

    Oh William invited me to come as there teams short and while we was out the other day some kid kicked a ball over the cage and I kicked it back in towards him perfectly and he likes how I play football and wants me to be striker on the game so that’s exciting.

    Na, you’ll always be the rainbow never forget that. You light up my world like nobody else. My California King

    Sweet dreams

    What his reply was:

    I haven’t forgot about you once. I’m being honest here, I haven’t. But forget about me because I’m not worth a single thought now. I’m terrible, I’m pathetic, I’m nothing.

    Enjoy life, be with whoever makes you happy. I’m not your california king, your rainbow, Edward, I am worthless really, and always will be.

    Move on, I ain’t worth remembering.

    Now I’m here crying my eyes out and I don’t know what to reply. I’ve begged him for a 2nd chance and he keeps saying no and sending me mixed messages but that one broke my heart.

    I DON’TT KNOW WHAT TO REPLY OR DO SOMEBODY HELP ME!

  • thexbox360player

    So my ex girlfriend started acting distant at the beginning of the month mostly because she started working more hours 10 a day, 6 times a week. Before this she was working normal 5 days 8 hours. During this period from April 5 to June 29th everything was going good, we would text each other most of the time in the morning nights, call would see each other about 2 to 3 times a week, wasn’t perfect all the time we would have arguments but wasn’t very serious (we weren’t actually dating just seeing each other) the arguments were mostly about me not wanting something serious and her wanted to take it to the next level. For the first 2 weeks of July we were seeing each other only once now, my insecurities started to crip in when she started to distant herself by her not replying to my texts quick, she would take hours to reply or not reply them at all, on the 4th of July she told me she would call me back and she didn’t something she hadn’t done before so that night I got drunk got home late deleted her from Facebook. Next day I thought I messed up by doing this sent her a message trough Facebook telling her I was sorry for deleting her that I felt she wasn’t caring anymore about me, and I care for her loved her. Her reply was i was acting like a little kid, that she understand that I care for her she needs to take care her of her daughter that now she doesn’t know about us and has no time. I requested her on fb that same day and untill now hasn’t accepted me. So I understand that, then left her alone by giving her space not calling her to much maybe every 2 to 3 days just simple texts and short calls of five minutes. This happened on the second and third week. Really felt like we weren’t like before, felt more like a friendship. At this time she was kind enough to answer then and replying to my texts which it was cool but at the same time I felt not good about because I wasn’t hearing what I wanted to hear. We have spoken trough the phone about twice this month and the conversation are mostly about her working too much, not having time for herself, for her daughter, too much stress at work, being a single mom blah blah. Not what I want to hear. The most we wouldn’t have any contact was 2 to 3 days but I been the one initiating all the contact all this month, and nothing on her part. I been trying to giving her space but I just couldn’t go for more than 2 days with me looking for her. So Saturday night which is her day off and sunday I called her she didn’t pick up either day . So that was it i had enough of this I thought to myself that if she really cared about me loved me like she would always tell me that even though she was working all these hours she could of at least find some time for me on her days off, send me a text here and there, that maybe she already has someone else or simply not interested. I decided to do no contact for good to see if she cares and to feel better because at this time I’m going nuts about all these. So she calls me yesterday at 7 pm after 4 and half days of me not texting her or calling or having any contact between the two of us in all of these 3 months and this was the first time her calling when I was doing all the texting and calling. At this time I am feeling better about the situation thought this was it if she wasn’t gonna call this weekend its was done for good. The conversation went good again her talking how stressful she’s been, she can’t handle working too much, not having time for herself and daughter that she’s sorry she’s been trying to call me all these time but either way she ends up being busy or falling asleep (sounds more like bs to me) come on if you care a little you can send a text her and there is guess. Again me not hearing what I want to hear for her to tell me to hang out on her day off or something that she wants to get back. She felt I didn’t want to talk to her I’m like I do want talk to her and that I’m not like that with her (inside of me I didn’t want to talk because of these going on) so she ended the conversation saying she was going to take a shower than shower her daughter and then was gonna call me back before she went to bed so we hung up. Right away I knew she wasn’t going to call me back which she didn’t all night. So now I’m back to day one of no contact, feeling lost, anxious don’t know what she wants, been trying to be patient about all this but I don’t know what’s going on is she playing mind games with me, or maybe even have someone else? Any advice on what to do, I know I’m going no contact again, don’t know how to act if she calls again

  • liza

    I need advise please. Here is my situation. My company closed its divisional office in MN. Reduced its force by 1/3, has its other office in TX and LA. Myself along with 80 other colleges lost there job on March 20. All of us got severance packages. I got 12 weeks. On the 20th of march we got our final pay with all un used PTO. I had 450 hours paid out. The company also told us you can get unemployment once your severance has expired. First week in april I received my 3/4 quarter 2008 bonus it is about 1 month of salary pay, what i us ally get. End of April I got another pro-rated bonus for work in Jan-march about 2 weeks of salary. Last week I applied for unemployment benefits, they told me my weekly benefit would be 520 dollars every week. Yesterday I got a letter in the Mail stating I will be eligiable to collect my first payment on October 4 2009! I called them right away. The Guy at the UI office told me the company showed I got 29 weeks in seperation pay. I told him my severance was for 12 weeks, I told him I did get bonus worked and PTO. He said you cannot get this on top of unemployement. I called some former collegues they are getting UI just fine all got severances, PTO and Bonues payed out. All got it right after there severance expired. So I called back and spoke with another person, they told me I need to appeal the findings. They told me it will take 8-12 weeks to process. I was going to use the extra money to supplement my unemployement. I have never been on unemployement, i am spending every hour of the day looking for a job. I dont understand I worked hard all of my life never filled for assistance such as this and I get greif. A nieghbor of mine loves when we gets laid off and get unemployement. He sits around and plays playstation and drinks beer for 3 months out of the year collecting unemployement. He never has trouble with them.
    Sorry to vent just wondering how this works

  • PIE BOY

    Hey,
    Thanks in advance. It’s kind of an essay. But I need honest answers. Me and my ex broke up back in April 29th 2012. We was together for 14 months (started dating February 2011). Long story short he ended it after I asked him to stand up to his mum after she wanted too control where our relationship goes. He dumped me out the blue and blocked me. It was a shock and a killer and I love him so much and just want him back. We met up on 3rd of July and he said he misses me and regrets it. So I’m sending this to his mum too ask for a 2nd chance with her son. What do you think:

    Never knew what love truly was untill we broke up and had them few months apart Jane, seriously. Ask people.. I never stopped talking about Tony and everyday I’d cry. Then them few days him and I was talking I never been happier. Then when I saw him with the biggest smile on his face and how he put his arms around my waist and said he loves me. Juts plays over and over in my mind. How can he cry and say “I regret ending it and I love you” one-day and then a few days later block me out? It doesn’t add up..

    Jane, I’d do anything to make him happy, see that big smile of his and hear his blissful laugh. Just to touch his hand, do our little thumb game and just feel him there. The biggest thing I miss? Is his voice, his sweet calming voice and how sweet he’d talk. Seriously no words can describe my love for Tony.

    People have gone “Sam move on” then when I tell them the story, what I’ve done.. and what happened recently everybody’s said its worth fighting for and not to give up. I’m not going to give up. 14 Months doesn’t disappear in a blink of an eye, emotion and love doesn’t go in a click of a fingers.

    I nearly gave up hope a few days before him and I texted (via BBM) a few weeks back, then when we both started talking that gave me faith and hope that I’m meant to be fighting for us to get back together. Just when I was going to give up hope, he came back into my life.. that’s saying something Jane. Faith’s telling me not to give up.

    Just to prove I’m good enough for Tony, I’ve not given up on college I’m doing exams and getting somewhere. Nearly got a flat but had to turn it down due to a deposit wanted. Loosing weight too fast, when me and Tony broke up within 2-3 weeks I lost a whole stone due to not eating and I’m still loosing weight. Just trying to feel better in genrel. I may be making myself healthier and fitter BUT that doesn’t mend the empty space within my heart for Tony. The heartache I feel daily due to missing him and the laughs him and I shared. We could joke about the silliest things and laugh for hours.

    I really truly want my best-friend and boyfriend back. That’s all I’m asking for.

    I’ve seen so many mates, break up with there partners and get back together due to arguments regularly etc. Me and Tony’s fallen out ONCE and that’s the end of us? Then when he saw me (few weeks back) he said he misses me, he said he loved me and he said he regretted ending it. Too me that’s sign’s that he wanted us to get back together one way or another. Then soon as I said “You need to tell you mum we’re talking”.. and he finds out your disappointed.. He blocks me out? I’m so confused Jane.. See it from my view PLEASE. I love your son so much and when we was together we was so happy. I just want all that back again. It wont happen with a click of fingers but when I saw Tony he said… Him and I need to build bridges, build trust and go from friends back into a relationship. But where the chance to do that? When hes blocked me out?

    I know I don’t deserve a second chance due to my actions BUT thats all I’m asking for is a 2nd chance to be with your son and make him happy.

    Please :(

    Thanks again.. please answer :(

  • Kaden

    My Journey As An NFL Superstar
    By: Anonymous

    When NFL Superstar was released in Madden 2006, I was pretty excited. I had a WR that eventually made it to the Colts, and the combination of Manning to my wideout was deadly. I spent the first 3 years of my career in Houston, bringing up my overall before I could get the hell out of there to a descent team. The ending was unsatisfying, and it wasn’t a challenge because I racked up over 1000 receiving yards per game. When Madden 07 came out, Superstar Mode was completely revamped. Now you only control your player, and you don’t call the plays anymore. No more 1000 receiving yard games I guess. I noticed that there was a lot more selection in choosing your Superstar, and you can choose the face shape and race of your player. I chose a WR whose dad was the Randy Moss of his time, so he’s probably fast. My mom is a neurologist, so she’s has to be smart, right? They both have average IQ’s, high 90’s. Here is my superstar’s journal, from his perspective.

    April 5th
    Hey Journal. It’s Davon Brown here. It seems like just yesterday when we won the NCAA championship. I sure am gonna miss Florida State. But I am movin on in my pursuit of the Hall of Fame. I signed my first agent today. His name is Jimmy Powers. I was pretty disappointed no one else wanted me, but what can you do? I have my first workout tomorrow. I hope I impress them.

    April 6th
    I took my trip to Green Bay today. They wanted me to run a Route Running drill. It was Brett Favre and I against two defenders. It was such an honor catching passes from a legend. He patted me on the back after the workout was done. I am starting to feel the anxiousness of the Draft. I feel like the workout improved my catching a bit, partly because I didn’t want to embarrass myself in front of Mr. Favre.

    April 12th
    From one Hall of Famer to the next. I traveled to New England today to work out with Tom Brady. I was doing the same workout I had done in Green Bay. I felt a real connection between Mr. Brady and I. We connected on over half of the plays. Coach Belicheck shook my hand afterwards and told me he was very interested in drafting me, which was a big honor. I have to go study now. I have my Wonderlic Personal Test in a couple days.

    April 13th
    I was surprised to wake up this morning to a phone call from the NFL Network asking for an interview this morning. I said yes, of course. They asked me questions about Santonio Holmes and me, and who I want to get drafted by. I tried to be polite, I didn’t want to seem like another flashy receiver with an attitude problem. I told them I wanted to be drafted by Green Bay, because of all the history there. I need to study a bit more for my Wonderlic test tomorrow.

    April 14th
    Wonderful news!! I took my test today and got a 90%. The question I got wrong was the antonym of temporal. I had no idea what it meant. I looked it up as soon as I got home, and the definition is “relating to time”. I guess the antonym is “not relating to time” or somethin’. A 90% is no bad score, and my agent congratulated me/

    April 19th
    I ran another route running drill today in St. Louis. Marc Bulger and I had a strong performance today. I showcased my speed and burned the Ram’s secondary for a few long gains. I feel like I am getting better every week, with a combination of my workouts and playing catch with my neighbor.
    April 22nd
    The WR portion of the NFL combine was today. The scouts asked if I could do my 40 time. I am not feeling very well today and I only was able to run a 4.41 second 40 time. I hope this doesn’t hurt my draft stock. In brighter news, the draft is only a week away and I am done with my workouts. I hope to get a call soon about being invited to the Draft. But if I don’t get the call, I’m not worried.

    April 29th
    I didn’t get the call unfortunately, so I am sitting here with my family watching the draft. I thought for sure I was going to get picked late in the 2nd round by the Patriots, but that didn’t happen. The Jets are on the clock right now. Wouldn’t that be somethin’ if the Patriots rivals took

    April 30th
    Sorry about yesterday. The Jets picked me as I was writing and the room went up in celebration. I am officially a Jet now. I’m pretty excited. The Patriots are going to see a lot of me now, aren’t they? I got my hair buzzed today and a couple tattoo’s. I have plenty of money. The Jets offered me a contract as soon as I got the call yesterday. $11,100,000 over 2 years with a signing bonus of $1,900,000. Not bad. I guess Jimmy did me well. I also get to keep the #12 that I made so famous at my high school in Florida. What a great day it has been!

    August 1st
    Hey, sorry it’s been so long. I have been working out very hard and I haven’t been able to write in a while. I have my first training camp practice today. The Jets told me that I will be battling it out with Lavernues Coles for the starting WR position, so you bet I am going to give it my all.

    August 4th
    We got creamed by the Buc’s today in our first preseason game, 24-3. I gave a mediocre performance, 2 receptions for 28 yards. But this is the preseason, so hopefully I will get better. Plus, I only played one half. I am the starting KR and the #2 guy for PR, so hopefully I can showcase my speed in that department, just hope I don’t hurt myself.

    August 12th
    If the first game was bad, then the 2nd game was horrible. Coles and I went to face his former team, the Redskins, and we got spanked 28 -18. At least we scored touchdowns, but I only got 1 catch and for a measly 9 yards. This is not how to win a position battle. I hope I can improve quickly. We play the in-house rival Giants next week. Maybe I will do better then.
    August 14th
    I was surprised to learn that a movie wanted me to star in their film. I got the offer today but I turned them down. As a rookie, I need to focus on football. Maybe I will next year, but not right now.
    August 18th
    The good news, we won our first game today. The bad news, I didn’t get a single catch or kick return. I was, however able to wave my hand in the air for a fair catch on a punt. I was utterly embarrassed by my performance today. I still don’t have a TD in the preseason. I hope Coach Mangini see’s that I am putting forth my best effort.
    August 25th
    Better late than never, I suppose. We won today and I had 4 catches for 70 yards to lead my team. Today was our last preseason game and we need another couple weeks of practice before the regular season starts. Coach Mangini awarded me the starting job after seeing my effort. I am very excited for the new season, but the overly long preseason has been a bit tiring. I am anxious to get into the endzone, so hopefully I can impress in my first game.
    September 7th
    Today is opening day for the NFL. The Steelers are facing my division rival Dolphins today. Go Steelers! It feels weird going against my old favorite team, but hey, I’’ not going to root for a division rival, am I? We open against the Titans in a few days. My knees are already shacking.
    September 10th
    Today was ok at best today. I got my first career win, which was awesome, but my first career reception evaded me. We won only by a point to the lowly Titans. It looked over when the Titans were within 3 and they got 2 points on a safety, but out D held up and kept them out of Field Goal range. We lost Curtis Martin today for 3 weeks. Injuries are never a good thing, but maybe I will be able to get some catches over the next few weeks while our running game is temporarily impaired.

    September 17th
    I showed New England why they should have drafted me today. Though my receiving stats were ok, 3 catches for 33 yards, I was able to touch the sweet endzone on a 86 yard punt return for a touchdown. I also had 3 kickoff returns for 124 yards. While I would rather have receiving stats, a TD is a TD, and it helped us beat our division rivals 21-18.

    September 24th
    I touched the endzone again today, with a 100 yard kickoff return. I also had an ok day receiving, 6 catches for 54 yards. I feel good about this season, we still have not cracked the loss column. We won 28-16 over division rival and upstate rival Buffalo. We head to Indy next week though, but I am confident we can pull of a win.

    October 1st
    6 receptions for 62 yards to lead my team in the assault against Indianapolis. Though I didn’t get my first career TD reception, I led my team in catches and yards as we won 24-14. I am still anxious to get into that endzone. Hopefully next week when we play Jacksonville.

    October 8th
    A day of mixed feelings today. Hearing the overhead announcer say “Pennington drops back….looks….fires to Brown..TOUCHDOWN Jets!” was so exciting. Hey, it may have only been a 3 yard pass, but hopefully it is the first of many. But, hearing the same announcer say “And the final score is Jacksonville: 38, New York: 35” was a heartbreaker. We are still 4 and 1 and leading the AFC East though.

    October 15th
    Finally! A day everything goes my way. 9 receptions for 106 yards and a TD to lead the team to a 20-9 beating of division rival (and my former favorite team) Miami. It felt so good to finally have a good game like that. I hope this momentum carries over to next week.

    October 22nd
    Ok, maybe it didn’t carry over. But we still won. I had 4 catches for 62 yards. We beat the Lions 23-20. I am starting to get used to this “winning” thing.

    October 29th
    Well, today sucked, royally. 2 catches, 35 yards. Beaten 34-17 by the Browns. I am at a lost for words. We get a much needed Bye week next week, than we head to New England. We have finished half of the season now, and we are 6 and 2. That’s good I guess.

    November 1st
    I had an unexpected interview today. They asked about our teams first half success and how we can improve. I stayed polite and I think the interviewer appreciated that. I was watching ESPN later that night and they labeled me as a possession receiver. Well, if I am this fast and I am a possesion receiver, than hopefully I can put together a great career.

    November 12th
    I woke up this morning, well-rested after our bye week, ate som Wheaties and headed out to Gillette Stadium early to work out with Chad. Boy did it show. 6 receptions, 135 yards and a TD in a 31-26 win over the Pats. What a day, what a day. We are now 7-2 on the season.

    November 19th
    In a game that featured 5 field goals, we fell a field goal short against the Bears. I had 5 catches for 77 yards, including a 48 yard reception. But the Bears kept me out of the endzone as they won 16-13.

    November 23rd
    I had another interview today. I guess I am getting popular. They talked playoffs to me and saying we have a legit shot of making them. I hate talking about playoffs when there are 6 games left, but I kept that in and stayed polite. Our team is facing to Houston in a few days. Hopefully we will be able to pull out a W and at least clinch a .500 season.

    November 26th
    We won. 30-27. But it wasn’t my day, it was our TE Chris Baker’s day. He had 9 receptions for 113 yards. I was held to 3 receptions for 39 yards, but a win is a win. It certainly wasn’t easy. We won 30-27 with a GW field goal in overtime. It seems the easiest teams can give you the hardest problems. We are now 8-3, still holding on to our lead in the AFC east.

    December 3rd
    They say there is nothing quite like a cold December game at Lambeau Field. Well, maybe for the Packers. We got absolutely demolished by them. I led the team in receptions, with 4. Only 32 yards to go along with that, another team high. We were able to squeak out 10 points in the 3rd and 4th quarters, but it wasn’t nearly enough to match the Pack’s 42. We are now 8 and 4 on the season.

    December 10th
    We came back to the Meadowland’s, looking for a win. But a OT field goal for the Bills gave them a win. I returned my second kickoff for a TD this year, going 92 yards. I was held to 2 receptions for 32 yards. Not a good day, not a good day at all.

    December 17th
    We played against the Vikings today, hoping to end our 2 game losing skid. But my TD was the only TD we would get as we lost 28-10. I am personally happy with my performance, 6 catches for 72 yards. But we are now 8-6. We play Miami next week in my first career Monday Night Football game. I hope this streak ends, quickly.

    December 25th
    Merry Christmas! Or. At least it was for Miami. Today was just an embarrassment. We lost 20-3. I had a catch for 16 yards. AND we are now tied for 2nd in the Division with Miami. The Patriots took over the lead a couple weeks ago. It has been a horrible past few weeks. We are heading into the last game of the season. Hopefully, we can pull out a miracle.

    January 1st
    Another Monday night game, another loss. What a horrible way to end the year. 5 straight losses. We haven’t won since November! I had 2 catches for 10 yards. And of all the teams to loose to, we lost to Oakland 21-7. But we made it in as a Wild Card team, even though we were only .500 on the season. I end this year with 65 receptions for 781 yards and 4 Td’s. Not that good. But I made the Pro Bowl as a KR, so that’s good I guess. We face New England in the first game.

    January 6th
    We lost, what else is new? I had 4 grabs for 64 yards but New England rocked us 37-17. The season is over now. Its pretty disapointing having it all end this way. I guess I am going to have to train harder this offseason to improve. Next year is a contract year for me, so I am going to set my goals high. I am hoping for 75 receptions, 1000 yards and 8 TD’s. Hopefully, it will happen and we can return to the playoffs.

    January 10th
    I had a tough interview today. We talked about the loss and it was pretty hard knowing we won’t be playing again this year. I have the Pro Bowl to look forward to though, so that will be fun.

  • slipknot0129

    Hi,
    Thanks in advance it means alot. Basically my ex is sending me huge mixed messages. He ended it on April 29th 2012 out of the blue. We was together for 14 months without any flaws or arguments and had a very active sex life (sex nearly every day of the week). . Due to it being a shock I went psycho outside his.. but lets not go into detail. But he blocked me out on everything.. facebook, phone everything you name it hes blocked it. After the breakup I found out I was pregnant with his baby and had no way to tell him, he wasn’t even at his house he was on Holiday in scotland for 3 weeks. While I was stressing about the baby, I miscarried in early June. Anyways..

    From april I’ve been finding it hard to get over him and grieve from the miscarried. But on the 3th of July he decided to contact me via my blackberry and we decided to meet up so we can talk. We talked about everything and he said he regretted ending it, we ending up kissing and I felt fireworks and then he held me close and said he loves me. The came out with, we cant get back together until we build bridges what was painful to here but I agreed to it. I told him about the miscarriage and we cried about it together and that was some comfort and to be honest I was so happy we was talking. Then on the 6th he blocked me out Again and I asked why. He said he cant forgive me when I went psycho outside his and hes doing it because he loves me?

    Then on the Friday the 27th July he’s got back in contact again sending mixed messages and I’ve told him how I still feel about him and left it there. I wasn’t going to beg anymore.

    We’ve been messaging for a few days now but Today I went on a date and he asked me what I was up too so I told him and his whole attitude in typing changed. Then he sent me a message that made me cry. I’ll show you what I sent him and what he replayed it broke my heart.

    What I sent him:

    Yeah your right it does help, you forgot about me easily enough.

    Yeah, same. I had a great date and it was a laugh. Plus an awesome time out with dad. Got two mates back together. Today’s been bliss.

    Oh William invited me to come as there teams short and while we was out the other day some kid kicked a ball over the cage and I kicked it back in towards him perfectly and he likes how I play football and wants me to be striker on the game so that’s exciting.

    Na, you’ll always be the rainbow never forget that. You light up my world like nobody else. My California King

    Sweet dreams

    What his reply was:

    I haven’t forgot about you once. I’m being honest here, I haven’t. But forget about me because I’m not worth a single thought now. I’m terrible, I’m pathetic, I’m nothing.

    Enjoy life, be with whoever makes you happy. I’m not your california king, your rainbow, Edward, I am worthless really, and always will be.

    Move on, I ain’t worth remembering.

    Now I’m here crying my eyes out and I don’t know what to reply. I’ve begged him for a 2nd chance and he keeps saying no and sending me mixed messages but that one broke my heart.

    I DON’TT KNOW WHAT TO REPLY OR DO SOMEBODY HELP ME!

  • Peter

    Hey,
    Thanks in advance. It’s kind of an essay. But I need honest answers. Me and my ex broke up back in April 29th 2012. We was together for 14 months (started dating February 2011). Long story short he ended it after I asked him to stand up to his mum after she wanted too control where our relationship goes. He dumped me out the blue and blocked me. It was a shock and a killer and I love him so much and just want him back. We met up on 3rd of July and he said he misses me and regrets it. So I’m sending this to his mum too ask for a 2nd chance with her son. What do you think:

    Never knew what love truly was untill we broke up and had them few months apart Jane, seriously. Ask people.. I never stopped talking about Tony and everyday I’d cry. Then them few days him and I was talking I never been happier. Then when I saw him with the biggest smile on his face and how he put his arms around my waist and said he loves me. Juts plays over and over in my mind. How can he cry and say “I regret ending it and I love you” one-day and then a few days later block me out? It doesn’t add up..

    Jane, I’d do anything to make him happy, see that big smile of his and hear his blissful laugh. Just to touch his hand, do our little thumb game and just feel him there. The biggest thing I miss? Is his voice, his sweet calming voice and how sweet he’d talk. Seriously no words can describe my love for Tony.

    People have gone “Sam move on” then when I tell them the story, what I’ve done.. and what happened recently everybody’s said its worth fighting for and not to give up. I’m not going to give up. 14 Months doesn’t disappear in a blink of an eye, emotion and love doesn’t go in a click of a fingers.

    I nearly gave up hope a few days before him and I texted (via BBM) a few weeks back, then when we both started talking that gave me faith and hope that I’m meant to be fighting for us to get back together. Just when I was going to give up hope, he came back into my life.. that’s saying something Jane. Faith’s telling me not to give up.

    Just to prove I’m good enough for Tony, I’ve not given up on college I’m doing exams and getting somewhere. Nearly got a flat but had to turn it down due to a deposit wanted. Loosing weight too fast, when me and Tony broke up within 2-3 weeks I lost a whole stone due to not eating and I’m still loosing weight. Just trying to feel better in genrel. I may be making myself healthier and fitter BUT that doesn’t mend the empty space within my heart for Tony. The heartache I feel daily due to missing him and the laughs him and I shared. We could joke about the silliest things and laugh for hours.

    I really truly want my best-friend and boyfriend back. That’s all I’m asking for.

    I’ve seen so many mates, break up with there partners and get back together due to arguments regularly etc. Me and Tony’s fallen out ONCE and that’s the end of us? Then when he saw me (few weeks back) he said he misses me, he said he loved me and he said he regretted ending it. Too me that’s sign’s that he wanted us to get back together one way or another. Then soon as I said “You need to tell you mum we’re talking”.. and he finds out your disappointed.. He blocks me out? I’m so confused Jane.. See it from my view PLEASE. I love your son so much and when we was together we was so happy. I just want all that back again. It wont happen with a click of fingers but when I saw Tony he said… Him and I need to build bridges, build trust and go from friends back into a relationship. But where the chance to do that? When hes blocked me out?

    I know I don’t deserve a second chance due to my actions BUT thats all I’m asking for is a 2nd chance to be with your son and make him happy.

    Please :(

    Thanks again.. please answer :(
    1) Hes blocked me out his life completly.

    2) The only way I can talk to him is via his mum.

    3) I told him how I felt when we met and we cried because I also lost a baby of ours and I didn’t know I was pregnant till we broke up.

    4) My “actions” was me going mental outside his house when he dumped me out of the blue.

    5) I’m 18, he’s 17 and has Autism.